ohio is for lovers

So goodbye, I guess.

I’m tired of getting on here and myspace just to be slapped in the face repeatedly.

I always felt like I was never actually needed. But now I just don’t feel like I’m even wanted.

To hell with it all.

I think we need more people in this world that don’t actually give a fuck. Talk about motivation. THINGS WOULD SO GET DONE. Feelings would so not get hurt. Because people would just not give a fuck about hurting people’s feelings. Because hurting people’s feelings would require too much effort. You know? And a guy wouldn’t tell you all of these things about how special and unique, and cute and irresistable, and funny, and smart you are. Because that would also require too much effort. Therefore, feelings would not be hurt on a count of guys wouldn’t give two shits about taking the time out of their precious days to actually LIE. Lying has become part of their daily routine. So if they didn’t give a fuck, they wouldn’t even have a goddamn routine to being with.

You are tangling one hell of a web with your constant lies. But I’m the only one that isn’t blindsided by your creeper-ish way of sweet talking your way out of everything.

THANK YOU, LORD. FOR PUTTING PENISES ON THIS PLANET. You have royally screwed all of us vaginas. But who am I? Just someone else that’s sick of the way things happen in this world. Bitch, out.

Lmfao.

FYI.

My self confidence has officially sky-rocketed. You do not, and will not ever again, control my feelings. You bloke.

Do not let him see you sweat.

I’m not going to. Not going to. The way he acts just makes it so obvious that he still thinks about me. And part of me hopes he’s living in his own personal hell. Because he abandoned me. He let his bipolar, assholeish personality weigh on his feelings. And the other part of me wants to hate him so bad, buts knows I’ll never be able to.

Yay for feelings, right?

I don’t have a clue.

That’s the truth. The. Truth. One second I’m happy, and the next I’m all down in the dumps. Honestly, this rollercoaster I’m on is kind of something I depend on. If that even makes sense to you.

But the one thing I do know, or at least think I know, is that I am going to be fine. I’m going to be completely fine.

And most of the things you do piss me off, but that’s okay. Because I still smile. That is the one thing no one will ever be able to take away from me. My smile. My smile is invincible. Has been for a long time.

LovelyxBethanie (12:44:26 AM): If you want complete honesty, they do seem really strong. I know that’s not what you want to hear, but it’s just what I’ve observed. Love sucks, and so do guys. Because girls always get the raw end of the deal. And we just have to figure out a way to handle it. But you made it through a break up with Jake while being here. So, if you can handle that, it seems like you should be able to handle anything. Because I saw how hard that was for you. And you pulled through amazingly well. And okay.

Haha.

I only did that to catch your attention for the 100th time. But someone else ends up getting it.

I’ll get over this.